You, me and him

You - I seem to know you inside out. You not only bought joy into my life but you were the rhythm in which I breathed. You bonded into me like the blood flowing in the veins of my soul. You were the other half of me. You were everything I looked for in a partner yet almost noting I wanted for a comfortable life.

Yet, you gave me one of the best of times. You scattered dewdrops on my parched soul. You made me appreciate smaller yet touching gestures which would have gone unnoticed before. You opened a different angled, a concealed shell, for someone whose life had been pacing on a safe road. Your route was more of a challenge to tackle but it was not mission impossible. Then I began to view many things through new eyes.

Me – I have realized that I play by the heart. I have made the best of things in some stages in life but I have my share of my mistakes. Experiences and company had bettered my life. There are some beliefs that I have embodied but changed a few years later. I am viable to change because I give ear and consider my choices. Mercifully, there are only a few things that I would have amended had I been given the choice of travelling back in time.

He – It did not happen overnight. He went unnoticed at first unlike you. He took his time to create an impact. It was strange because I never searched for you in him like I did many times before in others that I have met. He had his own identity and personality. Sometimes he was more of a mystery to me and at times he even scared me. However he became the light of my life. His presence blocked out the stress which battered my tired body on hectic days.

I still wonder about how we got close. It was less than a year. Only a few months. Yet, that was enough to draw us close. It surprises me on how close we became and how I had let my guard down.

I confess that I did think of him along the lines that I once thought of you. It was not the same and never will be the same. It was a different road. New aspects and different problems. There were collusions: family wise and personality wise. Yet they were not by choice or due to his fault. My mind is a turmoil when I think about ‘you, me and him’. I do not know how to put these feelings into words. I do not know if there ever will be a ‘me and him’ as there was a ‘you and me’ but one fact is concrete. I have accepted him for who he is even if we join hands or not.

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