Staying together
DESIGNED:
Expansive though the downstairs of Lakmahal was, and made me in
describing it, the heart of the house lay upstairs, in a layout that had
been designed especially for the family that moved into it in January
1937.
My grandmother must have been looking forward to this enormously. For
the last few years she had had to look after a dynamic collection of
children who, charming though they all were, must have been intensely
demanding.
Something of what she must have gone through was suggested to me only
towards the end of her life, when she was in her nineties and I realised
that my mother was worried not just about her physical condition.
Only my mother was left to look after her by then, for all her
brothers were dead, Tissa the second in 1961, the youngest Lakshman in
1983 at the age of 56, and the eldest Esmond two years later.
After Lakshman died my mother once suddenly said that he was the only
one who had understood - once, sometimes twice, a year, he would take my
grandmother to Kurunegala, and grant my mother relief for a week at
least of what I sensed she saw as a tremendous responsibility.
Apart from the natural tensions between two strong personalities,
there was I later realised something more.
My mother mentioned once, in passing, and could not quite remember
the dates, though it seems to have been sometimes in the thirties, that
- overwhelmed perhaps by her own responsibilities for four lively
children, needing also to spend time with her husband in his various
increasingly demanding stations of work outside Colombo - my grandmother
had suffered severely from the strain.
My aunt Ena provided further evidence of this, in that her mother, my
grandmother’s cousin, had once mentioned the enormous amount Esme had to
do, rushing about by rickshaw in Colombo to supply her brood and the
vast quantities of friends all four attracted.
So it was not only his own health, as I had earlier thought, that had
led Cyril to cut short his work in the field, his collaboration with
D.S. Senanayake in irrigation works and the development of the new town
at Anuradhapura. D.S. seems to have understood, for my grandfather was
made Land Commissioner in Colombo, where he could play some part at
least in the vast resettlements and restructuring D.S. had envisioned.
Cyril then was finally able to build a house of their own for his
family, the first they owned, and Esme could escape from the peripatetic
life she had led since marriage and settle in at Lakmahal for the next
half century and more.
The house accordingly was designed for the family to sprawl in, the
large downstairs for public entertainment, and upstairs, for them all to
pursue their varied interests, six large rooms, four balconies, three
bathrooms (red and green and blue - downstairs was yellow), two hallways
and a lovely lounge, with windows on three sides looking out over trees
and stretches of green grass north and south in other properties, and
eastward Lakmahal’s own front lawn.
The three flights of stairs from the ground floor gave onto the first
hallway upstairs off which three rooms led, my grandparents’ bedroom
over the large guest room, my grandfather’s study over the library, and
a third room over the piano alcove extension of the drawing room
downstairs.
Between the master bedroom and the study was the red bathroom, over
the downstairs bathroom and the corridor that connected it to the two
guest rooms and the library.
Over the smaller guest room was a square balcony that faced westward,
so my grandmother could, until her sixties, enjoy the sunset, until that
is high rise buildings blocked the view of the sea. The nicest room
upstairs, except for the lounge, was my grandfather’s study, which also
looked westward to the sea.
Sadly, he enjoyed it for just eight years, before he died in 1945,
six months before his first grandchild was born.
My grandmother was distraught, having moved under his sheltering wing
when she was just eighteen, and finding there a devotion that she basked
in after her own large and highly idiosyncratic family.
I suspect that my grandfather knew she would need care, and realised
that, given the varied interests of his sons, only my mother would
provide it.
That may explain why he did not want her to go to university, bright
though she was academically. I had never thought about it myself, for
when I was growing up women could still be thought of as essentially
wives and mothers, so I was startled when, in Denmark, where we went
together during my postgraduate years to visit great family friends, she
was asked why she had not gone to university. Her answer surprised me
even more, that it was because her father had not wanted her to.
I often thought about this later, for I realised that my mother’s
enormous potential - the best of us, as her brother Esmond described
her, according to Ralph Buultjens - had never been fulfilled.
Initially I wondered whether it was because the two cousins, my
grandmother and Lady Aluwihare, had panicked about too much freedom for
young ladies, after Ena had married the man of her choice, to the
chagrin initially of her parents. But from what I knew of my
grandfather, that sort of consideration would not have weighed with him
too much.
Rather, I now believe, he knew that his wife would need a constant
companion when he was gone, and his sons obviously had to pursue
independent careers. So my mother stayed at home, and when she married
her brothers told my father that he would have to live at Lakmahal and
look after their mother.
It was a task my parents fulfilled conscientiously, even to the
extent of my father turning down three ambassadorial positions which
President Premadasa offered him.
India, he would say deprecatingly, had not interested him, and he was
delighted to be able instead to suggest Neville Kanakaratne, who he had
no doubt did a much better job than he could ever have done, at a very
difficult period.
But he would have liked Canada, where we had lived as a family for
nearly two years while he was at McGill, and England he would have
relished. But - though I tried to persuade them that I could manage - my
mother said simply that she could not leave my grandmother and my father
never questioned her decision.
They did however have two respites, the latter tragically, for while
we were in Canada my uncle Tissa was ill, terminally as it turned out,
and my grandmother was at his side, nursing him, for some of this period
in England where we stayed with her on our way back in 1960.
The other respite was much earlier, when Lakshman, who always
understood, as my mother put it, took his mother to England to stay with
him while he was a curate in the East End of London.
I suspect my grandmother enjoyed those years more than any other time
since she was widowed. I think it must have been wonderful too for my
parents, to have a house of their own, for at least a few years when
they were young.
I was born during that time, much sooner after my sister’s birth that
might have been anticipated, which I put down as a mark of my parents’
carefree mood - though my sister can also be blamed, for an astrologer
who saw her horoscope soon after she was born predicted a brother very
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