A mother’s odyssey
Siripathy Jayamaha
On this sad day, shall we be with the Mother of the crucified Lord
Jesus my beloved son was on His way up to Calvary. I followed him.
James, John, Peter, Mary of Magdala and a few others were with me. It
was unbearable. He was carrying a heavy piece of timber on His
shoulders. Bent low, face, wreathed in pain. But calm. How many times
had I applied oil on His shoulders after He had helped Joseph in
carrying heavy pieces of logs into our workshop. He would always say
‘Thank you mother’ with a massive hug. How I loved that hug. Peter came
up to me ‘Yes’ I said “I know about it, but I know that He loves you
very much.” Peter kept his head on my shoulders.” Not once Mary, but
thrice. He cried bitterly. I heard that pantious pilate had washed his
hands during my boys so called trial, had said that he has nothing to do
with this innocent man. He had wanted to release Him. But he had to give
into the scribes and promises lest he be reported to Rome. Fear made him
go against his conscience. I felt sorry for him amidst my grief.
My darling son fell. He was in great pain. Hunger, thirst, the
scourging, the hideous crown of thorns caused my lovely son to fall.
They got an outsider, Simon the Cyrenian to help Him. An order, He
obeyed. I ran upto Him. A soldier approached me, his whip raised, either
to strike me or my son.
He wanted no delays. My son, turned His head and smiled at him. The
soldier, gazed at him for some time, lowered his whip and backed away. I
went up to him. What more grief can a mother endure than to see her
innocent only child on his way to certain death. He looked at me and
smiled. That smile.
The very same. The same as when he smiled as a naughty boy at home,
with Joseph, my mother and me. Smiling, singing, sitting on His
grandma’s lap. The smile when we chided Him for making us so worried
during our visit to the temple in Jerusalem. The same when he smiled at
me in Cana after acceding to my request.
At my home, with his disciples and the contagious smile after He had
taught us to pray to His father. Then, I recalled my own words “Be it
done to me according to thy word. Yes! He had completed going about his
father’s business and was on his final journey.
The soldier with the whip gently led me away. Later, I heard that my
son had told some weeping women – not to cry for Him, but their children
and their children’s children.
We were at the foot of the cross. There was darkness all over. The
dark clouds seem to form a canopy of darkness all over. As if they
wanted to be witnesses to this tragedy.
They stripped off His garments. For a mother, to see her son stripped
off his garments or without them from cradle to grave in times of
necessity is nothing to be scorned at. But seeing one’s own flesh and
blood in his adulthood being subject to this humiliation is unbearable.
I closed my eyes. We were strangers in this place. Some were laughing. A
few in tears. Dare we to go against lawmakers and Rome.
Jesus my son was laid on the cross. How He waited when those nails
went into His palms. He was struggling. So they kept His feet together
and sent a nail through them. He remained still. Those hands. How many
times had he caressed my face, the heads of little children with those
hands. How many times had He raised His hand in healing the sick.
Touched them.
They were the very same hands that were raised up to heaven when
teaching us pray to our Heavenly Father. And His feet. The feet that I
annointed and caressed when he retired to bed after His many journeys by
foot. Most of all, I recollect how He used to keep me on His lap and
embrace me when I told Him about my concern towards Him. How we walked.
Joseph, my boy and I laughing, chatting.
They raised the cross. Two convicts were strung up on crosses – one
on His right, the other on the left. They were only tied to their
crosses as was custom. My Jesus was nailed. To the soldiers this was a
common occurrence. Strange. The one who preached on love and forgiveness
was between two who practised and resorted to violence and murder. I saw
one of the convicts say something to my son. Jesus responded. I saw one
on cross smile at Him. He seemed very happy. Peter told me later that
the man had told my son to remember him when in paradise. Jesus had said
that verily he would be with Him that day in Paradise. No wonder the
good man was so elated. I heard him say ‘Father forgive them, for they
know not what they do.
I remember my son, looking at young John, then at me. “Behold your
son “He said feebly. Next, ‘Behold your mother’. I suddenly felt so
happy. I recalled those magnificent words of mine uttered about thirty
three ago. ‘My soul does magnify the Lord’s and that at generations
shall call me Blessed. I felt at that moment that He made me a mother
for all generations. John read my thoughts. He embraced me so
affectionately. My son was dying. He was gasping for breath. “I thirst”
he said.
They held a sponge fixed on to a spear, upto his mouth. I was happy.
He spat out what was in the sponge. It was vinegar. To ask for water and
to give vinegar to a dying person. Unthinkable. How many times had my
Boy said “Mother, your seasoning this dish with vinegar makes it taste
wonderful. ‘Yes’, yes’! Joseph used to say “Everything your mother cooks
is wonderful. With or without vinegar. Happy memories, but at what a
time. I cried.
He was straining Himself. His muscles were stretched. I looked away.
Mary, Magdalene put her arms round me and brought me close to her bosom.
Then He shouted.
It was a voice like no other. The soldiers too stopped joking and
chatter. They looked up. I saw the soldier who, had come towards us with
the whip. Wiping tears. They had said ‘surely He was innocent and is the
son of God”.
Then these words. “Unforgettable”
“Father into thy hands I commend my spirit.”
Then my Jesus bowed His head and died.
My sweet son, son of the Eternal Father left us.
Then I knew that this was going to be the Beginning.
The Beginning that will never ever have an end.
We were standing there. Desolation and death all over. We were at the
foot of the cross. Blood was still trickling down the cross. A few drop
fell on my body, clothes and face. The earth below the cross was
coagulated with His blood.
We took Him down. They placed His lifeless Body on my lap. How light
He was. They say, that in death a body becomes heavy. Perhaps He did not
want to burden me, any more. He had burdened my heart and body many
times, the flight into Egypt, lost in the temple in Jerusalem, anxiety
and concern on hearing His scathing utterances about the scribes and the
pharisees.
A close friend and councillor. Joseph of Aramoethia bequeathed the
tomb he had prepared for himself. He said that there was no greater
honour than to give his tomb to Jesus. I was so grateful. I recalled my
Jesus words “Greater love than this no man has, than for him to give his
life for his friend.” Josph met pilate and got the body released for
burial. Later, he told me that Pilate was very eager to release the
body. He had felt that pontious pilate was not at all happy about this
sad event of the day. We laid Him to rest.
We came home. All were silent. Veronica my friend wanted to show me
the face of my son that had got imprinted on her shawl, when she wiped
the blood splattered face of my Boy.
Peter took it away from her. They did not want me to see His face. My
friends helped me to change my blood smeared clothes. All were tired. Me
too. I slept. The following day was the Sabbath.
Early, on Sunday morning, I heard a lot of laughter and shouting.
“Mary” they shouted “Our Lord has risen from the dead. I was absolutely
joyous. All of us went towards the sepulcher. It was empty.
The happy group who had gone to anoint the body as was custom had
found the tomb opened. His burial clothes everywhere. Strewn all over.
All but for His own garments. They had been scared.
A young person had asked them “why seek the living among the dead?”
Then they knew. They knew in the most beautiful manner that my Jesus had
risen from the dead.
What Joy.
Me, a humble Jewish mother had been exalted to a position as no other
mother in the world.
Be it done to me according to your word.
This was the fountain of a new life.
I wandered and thanked our father.
How many will find a New Life and live happily because of this New
Life.
How many will lay down their lives in the name of this new found
life.
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